and it's been awhile
since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I first saw you
and it's been awhile
since I could stand on my own two feet again
and it's been awhile since I could call you

and everything I can remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that are rendered
I stretch myself beyond my means

and it's been awhile
since I couldn't say that I wasn't addicted
and it's been awhile
since I couldn't say I love myself as well
and it's been awhile
since I've gone and fucked things up
just like I always do
and it's been awhile
but all that shit seems to dissapear
when I'm with you

and everything I can remember
as fucked up as it all may seem
the consequences that I've rendered
have gone and fucked things up again

why must I feel this way
just make this go away
just one more peaceful day

and it's been awhile
since I could look at myself straight
and it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry
and it's been awhile
since I've seen the way the candles light your face
and it's been awhile
but I can still remember just the way you taste

and everything I can remember
as fucked up as it all may seem to be
I know it's me
I cannot blame this on my father
he did the best he could for me

and it's been awhile
since I could hold my head up high
and it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry